Monday, December 03, 2007

The Forces

The universe, they said, depended for its operation on the balance of four forces which they identified as charm, persuasion, uncertainty and bloody-mindedness.
It comes to me as no surprise that I find myself as an amalgam of all these four. Interesting is the fact that I am far from balanced. It is, however, just a matter of time before I attain the balance and reach the equilibrium. Till then, I would enjoy the dominant force inside me---bloody-mindedness, that is. And the world will have to deal with me. There is no hiding back....

It is often quoted that a man is known by the kind of friends and foes he has had, though I brutally discard any such clichéd proposition. Nevertheless, roll your sight on the things people have said over the stretch of time about yours truly and decide the sanctity of my character on your own. Sounds fair, doesn’t it? Of course, it does! After all, it is my character and not yours that is being put on test.

“The next time you stealthily pick money out from my purse without permission, you will be kicked out of the house”---No prizes for guessing why my mother was annoyed!!

“I won’t give up and I will request you not to give up as well. Just persist and let us hope we last longer than our lives. It is one of those very few aimless quests in my life”---a friend when I asked him to stop asking me the question that he continues to seek answer of for last four years. It seems that we come from a place where men take pride in being stubborn.

“I am betting 100 bucks on you. You know how much I despise losing . You won’t let me lose, will you?”---a friend who seems to have too much faith in me.

“Your right eye is a touch smaller than the left one. Somehow it appears so only from a small distance”---What the heck was she doing so close to my eyes??

“You think of giving up on me and I put a bullet in you head”---a friend when I told that I was good at driving people away. Incidentally, I didn’t know my friends kept guns with themselves. I had to reconsider who drove whom away.

“You are, if anything, a zombie. You walk as if there is no one around. Your talk with the least of warmth. You look as if you have not been served food for decades. Can you recall the last time you acted like a normal human being?”—a friend who, I guess, had a really bad day and needed someone to bring all his frustrations out upon. Guess who he bumped on!

“I like you for not what you are but in spite of what you are”---a friend who seemed desperate to let me know about my unsung qualities. I wondered for a week if what he said could be taken as a compliment. In the end, I decided otherwise.

“Your language is as bitter as gourd and it hurts as deep as sea”---oops, someone doesn’t wish to let even a single chance of framing similes go by.

“Your behavior scares me. Your attempts at achieving numbness is dreadful. Believe it or not, your conduct is unsocial. Don’t be such a loner. You are missing great fun in life”---a friend who didn’t look impressed by me. Am I really that scary?

“You surely know how to put your foot in your mouth”---a friend when I happened to screw myself up again. Yet again.

“I think I am in love with you”---someone who I hadn’t talked to even once and that ended up being the only talk we two had ever had. I always thought proposal was the most difficult thing to do and there she was, proving me wrong all the way.

“I would have chosen you if it weren’t for every other human being on the earth”---someone who was looking for a partner. Frank and pure. I loved that.